So this week we found out by a new doctor Daniel saw, that if Daniel's sperm count is how it was a few years ago, then there is no way to concieve a baby naturally. It was surprising to me that my reaction was not of sadness but rather relief . So much of the unknown these last few years have been rough. Finally a doctor has told us we cannot have children naturally. I do believe in miracles and I do not  care in which that miracle of life occurs. Be it a biological child with Daniel or an adopted child with Daniel. Any child we have will be loved greatly and fiercely .

 I am happy to be in a position to make choices in how I would like to prepare the way for our future child. I am learning to accept that Daniel and I  are not a cookie cutter husband and wife. That our life will not be the societal norm. And that it is ok for us to live our lives as God calls us to & not what the world expects of us.

-Amanda